It's pretty rough but here's my first attempt at writing again in months...


To the passing of a loved one

You used to shine
With a radiance near the sun
You used to laugh
With exuberance stronger than a newborn baby
You used to cry
With no shame
You used to explore
With no fear of falling

There was a glint of happiness
And a pinch of fear
Your skin was cracked
But your heart was pure
Nobody tried to fix you
Because you didn’t appear broken
You lived your life
Without a need to fear death

If I had known
I would have said so much
If only somebody had warned me
Maybe I could have prevented it
Maybe I could have seen it coming
But my vision kept worsening
I wasn’t prepared
For the passing to come

You left me ripped and torn
You left me to fend for myself
You left me with a gaping hole
In the middle of my chest
Where have you gone?
Why can’t I feel?
Am I doomed to this
Encompassing, wrenching, thwarting
Need, desire, longing
To fix, heal, improve, and save
The world?
I lost you to death
My soul
Why can’t I find the world instead?